The Treatment Plan

For the cancer I've got there is a specific treatment plan. I do this and the odds are 90% I will never see this cancer again. Here's what will take place:
Radiation: There will be approximately 33 radiation treatments aimed at my pelvic area. They began July 5 and will conclude at approximately August 18th.
Reaction: First third: No issues. Second third: Discomfort. Final third: Increasing discomfort, culminating in 'brutal'.
Chemotherapy: There will be two courses of treatment. The first was started on July 5. The second will begin August 1st.
Reaction: First course produced nasty mouth sores, an overall sludgey feeling and 'chemo brain'. At least I know what to expect for the second course, and can make some plans.

I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
Philippians 4:13

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Bumps and Stones


It’s annoying. I don’t like having these bits of extra issues rolling around. Sigh. Lets get over this one together, blog readers. What it is is already determined. None of our precious opinions carry any weight at all. End of discussion. Reflect on how silly we are. Smile. (A touch of wryness is permissible.) Pump a little happy juice. Wry happy juice is still happy juice. I think.

Stones
Gall bladder got ultrasounded. Guess what. The ‘junk’ turns out to be good sized stones. Not that there’s any treatment called for. My gall bladder feels fine to me, and that, at least, seems to be the governing factor in the fate of the poor organ. But I will try to be extra nice to it. A low fat diet is helpful, and although I generally eat that way, I hope to do less cheating.

Bumps
Two enlarged lymph nodes in my groin. These were needle biopsied by Dr A in his office yesterday. Results will be available tomorrow.

Revisit blog post of June 21
Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Matthew 6:27
Don’t!
Don’t go there.
We worry when we can't see ahead as clearly as we want to.
If we don't know what it is, why on earth do we spend precious mental energy wondering about it?
Just don’t go there!
It will be revealed when its time has come. Or not.
We take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. 2 Corinthians 10:6

I am grateful for the prayers of God’s people. Here’s some evidence that your prayers are bearing fruit: I was remarkably relaxed through the procedures yesterday. During the gall bladder ultrasound I was asked to breathe deeply, hold, and exhale repeatedly. I'm thinking, 'My goodness, there's something to this deep breathing." When asked to turn onto my side I felt so peaceful and comfortable that I could have had a nice nap on the spot. Procedure over. Too bad.
Later, at Dr A’s office, waiting for the groin exam, my blood pressure was 100/80! It hasn’t registered that low in 10 or 20 years. Thanks, all!

Look for a post tomorrow – probably late, and short. I have a barbeque dinner date with a baseball team.

Finally, a little more of the Word of God  -
2 Samuel 22:29-34
You are my lamp, O LORD; the LORD turns my darkness into light. With your help I can advance against a troop; with my God I can scale a wall. As for God, his way is perfect; the word of the LORD is flawless. He is a shield for all who take refuge in him. For who is God besides the LORD? And who is the Rock except our God? It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect. He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; he enables me to stand on the heights. 

Monday, June 27, 2011

Tributes

These are my Trailblazers. Not the Portland basketball Trailblazers. These Trailblazers have led the way for me by living brilliant lives to the end - the very end. It has been my privilege to walk beside each one for a little bit along their way.

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. 
Hebrews 12:1

Patti
I was in the final stages of healing from breast cancer surgery when my friend Patti called one dark and wet January evening with the devastating news that she had just been diagnosed with non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma. We had just spent the weekend as roommates over at the coast at the annual retreat for the women of our church. She was in pain and couldn’t sleep. I kept her entertained with stories – they amounted to a stand-up comic routine, but I can’t remember any of them now for the life of me - about having cancer and going through diagnostic procedures and surgery. I especially shared how I often would feel unusually peaceful and confident, attributing these feelings to the prayers of God’s people.

The year that followed was not easy for Patti and her family. Treatments were a struggle. She had to let go of her job at which she excelled and was making an impact. Her boys were teenagers. Her husband, some months later was diagnosed with cancer as well and he struggled with recovery from surgery while she struggled with chemotherapy side effects and fading energy.

During that year it was my privilege to organize “Patti’s List” and send out regular updates by e-mail. Exactly the thing I am now doing with this blog. People prayed and Patti battled, until, not quite a year after she was diagnosed, at home, surrounded by family and a few friends, Patti moved on to heaven, where Jesus would welcome her into the place He had prepared for her, just as He has promised for all who believe on His Name.

Patti was forty-six years old when her life here ended. Her family and friends still grieve, and, to a certain extent always will. But to have been so close to her for that year is an experience I will treasure forever. I can only thank God repeatedly for putting me near her, for allowing me to serve her and see first hand how He showered Patti with mercy and grace throughout her time of suffering.

And you will receive a rich welcome into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. 
2 Peter 1:11

Amy
Amy and I went back pretty far. We studied Kung Fu together. We were seekers together and accepted the gift of salvation through Jesus Christ within months of one another. Amy was always a healthy, high energy, athletic woman who took very good care of her self. At forty-eight she was fully engaged in raising four children, home schooling them, and maintaining a small zoo of animals and a large garden.
So how could it be that this vital woman should be hit with thyroid cancer?

But that’s what happened. While I was busy wondering how I could get cancer twice when I was doing everything pretty much ‘right’, Amy, who was doing it all much ‘righter’ than I was, was being hit earlier in her life, and harder – to the point of death. Again, just as with Patti, only her body was to die. Amy is also in the place Jesus has prepared for her. That faith, and that hope, carried Amy and her husband and her four children (aged 12 to 18) through a long valley – an abyss even – and has given them the strength to continue.

Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
They will run and not grow weary,
They will walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 40:31

Preston
Amazing youth pastor. Amazing Bible scholar. Brilliant mind. Insane sense of humor. Young husband and father. Wise beyond his years. Destined, it seemed, for a life of major impact for our Lord.
I would not have known him but for the fact that he and his wife lived in the area encompassed by our church ‘Care Group’ loosely made up of people living near to one another.
Preston was twenty-four, married to the amazing Tara, father of dear Jacob and little Micah, only in his eighth week of gestation when . . .
The family was driving north on I-5 in central Washington when they came upon an accident. Someone had hit an elk. They stopped, and as Tara tells it, Preston promptly got out, desiring to lend aid where he could. He was calling 911 from his mobile when he was hit by another vehicle – the driver tried to avoid the wreck, but did not see Preston . . . Just like that, in Tara’s arms, he was taken up, in a wave of peace, yet leaving behind earthly devastation.
Tara’s was the first blog I ever read. She’s a gifted writer and I have put a link to her blog on this one. Just click on the "taranator" link. She has openly and beautifully shared, in profound depth and detail, her journey since that night in September 2008. I cannot recommend this journal too highly. You will weep. You will laugh. You will be challenged in your belief, and you will learn through Tara how God brings freshening and hope out of ruin.
Preston stood with Paul, who, in his letter to the Philippians (Chapter 1, verse 21) said, “For to me, to live is Christ, and to die is gain.” Even now, Preston's life continues to impact people in ways none of us could have imagined.

These are my trailblazers. In truth we need but one, Jesus Christ. God has given me these three - just to be sure I get it? I don’t know about that, but I do know I am grateful for having known these remarkable people in life and in death, and for a loving God who generously gives us more than we need!

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Treatment Plans

Good news! 
The state of my body is pretty much sorted out and plans are in place.
I am feeling so relieved and relaxed that it’s been a challenge to get the plan written up for all you blog followers to see.

Radiation:
This coming week preparations for the radiation treatments to the tumor will continue. Some take place ‘behind the scenes’, others require my presence, with the end goal being that radiation is directed precisely at the area of the tumor.
The actual sessions to zap the tumor will begin July 5 and will take place Monday through Friday, probably at around 3:30 to 4pm in the afternoon, for about six weeks and change. I forgot to ask how many of them they want to do. I believe it’s 30 to 35. If all goes well, I will be done in the middle of August. Done with treatments, but facing a couple of weeks of healing to the radiated area. Think mega sunburn to tender area.
I am grateful that I enjoy hanging out on my couch and that my cat has an endless appetite for my lap. I am also grateful that I tolerate pain pretty well – especially when I know it will eventually be gone.

Chemotherapy:
Well, I don’t get to skate by chemo this time. I understand that it is because this tumor is two cm. in size. One cm. – no chemo. Two cm. – chemo. Oh well. The thing is still considered ‘small’ by all who speak of it, and – best news! – I won’t be throwing up and/or losing my hair! Research has found that chemo used in conjunction with the radiation gives a greater degree of  success in eradicating all the cancer cells. It is particularly designed to eradicate any stray cancer cells that might released into the rest of my body as the radiation disintegrates and destroys the tumor.
There will be two chemo treatments, one on the first day of radiation and the second four weeks later. I get a 10-minute drip, and then I will wear a little pump with, I guess, a little reservoir of chemo cocktail that will slowly go into me over five days. It’s all contained in a little fanny pack thing.

Prognosis: 90% cure rate. The docs and I think my odds are even better than that because I am officially declared to be ‘healthy as a horse.’

Prayer warriors: I would ask that you join me in praising our God for his mercy! I will write more on how I believe I needed this kick in the _ _ _. That it is only gentle boot is such a blessing.

Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God!
How unsearchable his judgments, and his paths beyond tracing out!
Who has known the mind of the Lord? Or who has been his counselor?
Who has ever given to God, that God should repay him?
For from him and through him and to him are all things.
To him be the glory forever! Amen.
Romans 11:33-36
I would recommend also Isaiah Chapter 40 - all of it!

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Amazing Birthday!


The day began bright and early with visit to Dr H, Radiation Oncologist, the latest addition to my growing medical team.
Well, radiation treatment won’t exactly be pretty, but it’s do-able.
All I have to do is think briefly about just about anyone else my age, and many who are younger, and the treatment/side effects look like a cakewalk.
Yeah, now about age. Nah. Forget it, but the celebrations were a hoot!
Went to work after seeing Dr. H and found my office done up in pink streamers!
Enjoyed a pizza party with the marketing crew. The cats were away. We were the mice, having a bit of playtime.
Somehow multitudes of facebook friends staged a convergence. I have never had so many birthday wishes!
Then my All Star showed up with his mom. Best present: Big All Star hug. Mom brought a bag filled with Starbucks goodies.
Took in a bit of All Star ball practice after work. Then home – and decided to answer every one of the fb friends’ birthday wishes. That was a good thing. I have a big smiley face on now.
I will be sleep deprived if I give this any more time, but I did want to get a real time capture of my birthday moments! All in all, one of my better ones.
So with thanks to all friends, and with gratitude in my heart to God I will say, ‘good night’.

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Y'all don't be worryin' 'bout me, now . .

There are more tests to be done on me in order to gather all the information the docs need to put the best treatment plan in place. I will probably find out what that entails sometime late next week.

So – meanwhile, my friends -
[I'm afraid the following will sound like hopeless Pollyanna claptrap to you who do not believe that the God of the Bible is the true, living God, but, here we go - ]

Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Matthew 6:27

Don’t!
Don’t go there.
We worry when we can't see ahead as clearly as we want to.
If we don't know what it is, why on earth do we spend precious mental energy wondering about it?
Just don’t go there!
It will be revealed when its time has come. Or not.

We take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. 2 Corinthians 10:6

Capture your thoughts. Don’t let them go to worry.
God has our back.
He may not take us where we want to go, but he takes us to where he can use us, and to where we can learn more of Him and His ways, and to where we can grow strong and wise and serve Him most effectively.
With experience, we find that this is true. He’s done it for us before.
He is faithful. He is doing it for us this time too.
To worry is to tell God you don’t trust him.
Yet our human nature persists in doing it.
Smile. Yep, crack that smile and see what positive thoughts bubble up to wipe out the worry.

…whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable – if anything is excellent or praiseworthy – think about such things. Philippians 4:8

Worry.
Don’t go there.

Monday, June 20, 2011

The Gift of Blog?

The Bible tells us that God has given us gifts.

In Romans, chapter 12, verses 6-8 we read, “We have different gifts, according to the grace given us. If a man’s gift is . . . serving, let him serve, if it is teaching, let him teach, if it is encouraging let him encourage . . .

 A pastor gave some ideas about how we can tell what gifts we have been given.
He suggests we ask ourselves the following questions:

  • Is the activity in question something you feel compelled to do – drawn to – and is it something you really like doing?
  • Have others told you they think that you are good at it?
  • Have there been good results (fruit) from you doing this activity?

So?! Have I been given a gift for blogging??

  • I am excited to do it.
  • People have liked the e-mails that form the beginning of the blog.
  • People report that these same e-mails encourage and inspire them.

So it appears that yes, I must blog!
And so I will blog, with gratitude in my heart to God.
And have fun!
Smile.

Each one should use whatever gift he has received  to serve others, faithfully administering God's grace in its various forms. 2 Peter 4:10

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Back Story

For this latest skirmish, we go back about a year. Without going into detail, suffice it to say my guts weren’t behaving well. Spent some months just waiting for the whole issue to go away. In November I went on the internet and implemented suggestions I found there about modifications to my diet. The modifications helped, but they did not cure. After some months, I tried stricter modifications. Again, I got improvement, but no cure. I fought going to a doctor because I did not want to bounce around the medical system while various docs tried to determine what was going on.

On the morning of May 25 I was having a quiet prayer time, and the issue of my misbehaving gut bubbled into the front of my thoughts. I half expected the wrath of my Lord to descend and tell me in no uncertain terms, “You fool! Get your body to a doctor!!!” What I got instead was an overarching sense of peace about going to the doctor. I called my primary Doc, Dr. S, and quickly had an appointment for the next day.

The visit with Dr. S, lead to a referral to a GI doc, Dr. D. Dr. D ordered up a colonoscopy, scheduled for Monday, June 6.

At the colonoscopy, tissue was taken and biopsied. On Thursday, June 9 I heard from Dr. D. He reported that there is a tumor and the tumor has cancer.

At this point I began emailing select people: My church small neighborhood care group. My kids. Select colleagues at work. These Early Emails have been copied and posted on this blog, serving as the beginning of the more immediate narrative.